the key to change is in ur head!

layan perasaan

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lately aku tgk ko smcm je...aku ni mmg mls nk tegor if tgk org wt muke len dr muke biase...maybe sbb aku sdiri if aku down or sumthin, aku mls nk lyn org...then ble aku tgk ko cmtu, aku biarkan jela...aku bg ko mse tuk diri ko sdiri...tuk ko pk dlm2 pe yg ko ptot wt...bkn tuk ko lyn perasaan sampai ko nk rosakkn diri sdiri...nape nk jaohkan diri dr org?nape nk jeles dgn hubungan org?we stil fren...xpernah plak nk letak title 'exbff' kt kwn sdiri...kdg2 kite akn rpt n kdg2 kite x...sori if terase ati...aku ni cpt bosan dgn sumthin, sori sbb aku pernah ckp sesuatu yg wt ko kcik ati..."adik,wajib ke nk msg aku tiap2 ari"...mse cuti sem tu aku mmg depressed gler...need time to be alone...tp ko stil msg, tu yg aku tlepas ckp cmtu...n now, aku xphm r jiwe ko cmner...ko mcm sllu konfius je...dgn A ko len, dgn B ko len...mcm de split personalities je...ko mcm xleh nk decide pe yg ko nk tau...thats y ko sllu rase ko tlalu bgantung dgn org yg rpt dgn ko...tu r sbbkn ko konfius ble org yg rpt dgn ko xde dgn ko...ko xleh expex org yg rpt dgn ko de dgn ko 25hours...sumtimes ko kne sdiri jgk...dlm erti kate len, mceriakan hidop sdiri...bkn melayan perasaan ye...diulangi, bkn melayan perasaan...ble sorg2, ko kne muhasabah diri tau...dlm diri kite ni de yg +ve n -ve...ko kne lawan yg -ve tu...jgn r hanyutkan diri dlm ctuasi cmni...pliz r..mne adik yg funny tu?optimistic r dik...aku n sya xpernah nk jeles if kitorg de best fren len...masing2 open, de life sdiri kn...cube bgntung kt diri sdiri, not others...if de prob, cite r...if rse kwn ni xsesuai nk cite, b cloz to ur family...family's precious tau...make it no.1 more than ur fren...dlm hubungan ni don depend 100% to only 1 person...dlm dunia ni de mcm2 jenis manusia, dlm konteks bkwn ni kne de 1000 kwn...mne leh nk lekat b'2 je...tol x?len r if bcinte, mmg kne stick kt 1person! dik, risaukn diri sdiri dlu, bru leh risaukan org...bkn nk splash ko, tp aku xsuke tgk ko seksa diri smate2 risaukan org...aku da experiencd sume tu, aku xnk ko wt bende yg sme...jgn wt bende bodo r...ko makin wt org nyampah de, benci de...tah r ek...all the question yg timbul from mslh ni, cume ko je yg de jwpn nye...sume nye dlm pale ko...

in conclusion, stay in reality, dont b into much fantaC...b optimistic, wt u hav is not fully urs...terima hakikat for sumthin yg ko mmg xsanggop nk hadapi...u'll better in time...insya-Allah...

p/s: aku n fasya minta maaf if pe yg kitorg wt dpn mate ko wt ko jeles n kecik ati...kami mmg xsengaje...its natural...mmg kami begitu...